Thursday, June 17, 2010


After my freak out last night, I woke up this morning totally off center. I felt like I was walking on egg shells. I didn’t know what to expect after a night of revelations and heart felt conversation. But he was wonderful.

He caught on quick that I was having a difficult time this morning. I still am having a hard time, but he handled my “freak out” with aplomb…and really, I didn’t freak out. I don’t freak out by anyone else’s standards since I tend to hold everything tight inside, which is why it hurts to breathe and my stomach and back hurt. I think I’m falling apart, because I am on the inside and God forbid anyone should see that on the outside. I can’t abide by anyone seeing that I’m having a rough time and then actually offer to help.

But he did.

He saw and while it was hard, it was okay. And he didn’t offer to help…he just helped. He said the right thing, he reassured me and he held me. I still feel off center, but I know that it will dissipate as the day goes on; at least I hope it will.

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