Thursday, April 15, 2010

Strange turns

So this is when I wish that I had a huge following with lots of input because I don't really trust my own judgment.

I met someone.

And while I'm really happy, I am walking on eggshells trying not to fall and land on my ass. I don't want to read too much into it. I don't want to be taken advantage of again. I don't want to make the mistakes that I have made in the past. This all seems too good to be true at the moment so I'm trying my very best to go slow.

In fact, I am giving it my best effort to go slow. I am making myself still talk to other men. I am going out and dancing and having a good time. I am trying to make sure that before I cut everyone off I have truly made an informed decision. I am trying to listen to actions rather than words and I am seriously considering going to a therapist to help me sort this out. I want to make sure that this time, if it is "this time" that I choose right. That I make a decision that will benefit me instead of harm me.

I'll tell the "how we met" later, and just leave the "OMG, I'm a little terrified at the moment." for now.

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