So I've been MIA for quite sometime...
I abandoned men for a few months around the holidays. I figured why should I spend time with someone I don't know when the holidays are for spending time with people you love, right?
A lot has changed and not much has changed. I'm still single. I joined Match with lackluster results so far. All the men from last year have pretty much fallen by the way side and now there is a whole new crop. A crop that is changing quickly but a new crop
Since the new year there has been at least one that showed real promise. And then he got transferred a little too far. To be honest, there really wasn't a whole lot of time to see if the "promise" could lead anywhere.
And now, now I'm annoyed.
I'm annoyed because somewhere along the way, men forgot how to woo. What happened to those tension building dates? What happened to the romance and the seduction? I met one man and after the first meeting, (a date is when he picks you up, a meeting is when you drive separately,) he asked if we could have the next date at his house! Now some of you may not see anything wrong with this, but seriously!?!?!?!
I do not take sex lightly. I know that when I get into bed with someone it has to mean something because otherwise I am in for a whole lot of trouble. I get attached. I start building fantasies only to get my heart broken. So if I'm not in love with you, I'm certainly not going to sleep with you.
But it seems that this is the norm these days. One meeting and then sex is okay.
So I'm not normal?
Because I just can't do that. I can't just dive into bed because we met for a drink and I think you're okay. I need the build up, the anticipation and the feeling of losing my breath. If you can't give me that, well then I can't give you the other part.
Now don't get me wrong. I am not a haggard looking girl hiding behind indignation. I have been told that I am "elegant" and "exotically beautiful" for Pete's sake! I deserve these things, but I'll be damned if I can find a man who can do them. Every time I consider bending the rules something holds me back. I guess I'm not willing to settle this time.