What is it about ex-boyfriends? Why do they keep coming back to haunt you much like indigestion? My ex phoned me this week and HAD to see me. He missed me like crazy. He needed me. Now that is where I get in trouble, not with his promise to give me a child...(because I would have a better chance of picking up some stranger at a bar and getting a better gene pool,) but with the needing part. I'm a sucker for being needed.
So, like a fool, I saw him. And I'm having a hard time letting him down easy. Of course he tried to get in my pants. And while I can't say I wasn't tempted, (it has been a looooooong time since I've done the horizontal,) I just wasn't interested.
The rules of the game have changed and he just doesn't seem to be catching on. He's telling me that life is short and we should take advantage of the moment. I'm thinking, "Really?!?!!?" Because if you ask me, he was the one who ended it. He was the one who kicked me out and said don't come back. And if he really wants me back, some serious wooing has to occur. And last I checked wooing is not grabbing my ass and telling me in graphic terms what he wants to do to my body. Where are the phone calls and the flowers and the dates?
To be honest, I don't think he can do it. And to be even more honest, I'm really not all that interested. I gave up everything for him at one time. I lost my family, my job, many of my friends and he didn't appreciate that sacrifice in the least. So now, I have gained all that back again and I'm not willing to make that mistake a second time. My family detests him and my friends aren't his biggest fans either. I'm happy and I know I deserve better that what he has to offer. But just like that greasy food that makes you feel sick afterward, I have a hard time keeping away.
Now, that doesn't mean that I don't have a bachelor update...lol
Bachelor #4: We have fallen out of touch. Between work schedules, sleeping schedules and different time zones we haven't spoken in awhile. That doesn't mean I don't smile whenever I think of him.
Bachelor #6: We are still moving along at a snail's pace. He is thoughtful and encouraging and so sweet...but I don't think the chemistry is there. At least not on my part, but I'm not throwing in the towel yet.
Bachelor #7: He is childish. He is ignoring me, so I've deleted him. But he was so handsome!
Bachelor #8: He is traveling with a non-profit and says he'll come to visit. I'll believe it when I see it...he has also asked me to let him know if I need anything; a.k.a. money. Hmmm, is this a sugar daddy in the making?
Bachelor #9: He is very religious and has some serious hang-ups about sex. I'm attracted to him and we have alot in common but I'm not sure we can get past the sex issue. It is not a big deal for me, but it is for him.
Bachelor #10 (We in the double digits!!!): He is divorced and dealing with a break-up. We talk every day, but have yet to meet. He is handsome and funny but I don't think he is ever going to make a move.
Bachelor #11: This man lives part of the time by me and part of the time in another state. We are supposed to go out this coming week and I'm anxious to hear his sexy accent.
Bachelor #12: This is the newest addition to my collection. He has asked for my phone number but has yet to call. We IM every day and he seems funny and intelligent.
That's the update. :)